I barely slept at all last night. A simple fact. I'm deeply troubled at the state of my very good friend. A friend who helped me through an extremely tough time, a person unlike any other person I've ever met in my entire life.
This person is smart, funny, beautiful and much bloody more, so when I see her in trouble and pain it pisses me off to no end. I want to resort to violence, but there is no one really to hit, nothing to break. It's not that easy, it's not that simple.
I feel totally helpless because there's nothing I can do. I want to say more, explain everything but that would probably only end up hurting her if I reveal to much. I've realized so much in a space of a few hours. She really doesn't deserve this, but she is a victim of her circumstances that make her the wonderful person she is... and I feel she is forever destined to repeat her current situation. She is unable to break the predictable pattern. She is chained in a manner beyond physical bondage.
There's nothing I can do.
This post is but a pinprick of everything that's running through my head right now, but I can't even talk about it. Even Worse.